Tuesday, March 29, 2005

Live, die and pay taxes

Yep, what a title huh?

It has been a long time since I blogged, but things just don't seem to be very happy around here. After mom passed away, the kids and I went through quite a sad time. We were all looking forward to a new year.

So how did this year start off- like doggy doo! Dh and I had some problems- I actaully asked him to leave for awhile. We are working through all of that, and he did move back in 2 weeks later. Things in that department are getting better.

I found out that I had Pre-Cancerous cells on my Cervix- scared me for 2 weeks while I waited for the test results! I have had the Out paitent surgery for it, and now it is just a wait a see thing. I have to go back for check ups 4 times this year, and then twice a year until the doctor says all is ok.

I get to go back and have another Mammogram done in 6 month's. There was an enlarged lymphnoid on the left side they want to check again. I guess it isn't anythoing to worry about, but they just don't know me do they!

So much for life! Now for death, unfortunatley! Yes, we lost another person in our family. My brother Jon passed away the day before my surgery. He had a heart attack and passed away in his sleep- luckily they said he didn't suffer. I couldn't make it to the funeral- it was in Wyoming. My older sister said it was quite nice. We all want to have the same kind of service we had for my mother- cremation, and then a party afterward. No tears, just lots of happy memories.

Oh, and we can't forget taxes. I am sitting here waiting to find out how much we are goingot owe this year. They called once today, but weren't quite done yet- needed to know a couple more things. I hope we don't owe this year, but I have a feeling we will!

Thursday, May 20, 2004

How much is too much?

I feel like I am almost at the end of my rope! My life hasn't been the easiest, and yet I don't complain. I have dealt with loss of life- way to many times to be able to count, have been mentally abused by my Ex, mugged and beaten when I was a teen, used to many drugs as a teen, gone through a divorce, took care of myself, my 2 daughters, and my pregnant sister, don't know my real father(the jerk was married and didn't tell my mother until I was conceived), you name- I have been through it!

I finally met a man, got married, he adopted my daughters, we had 2 kids, and bought a house- I really thought my life was going to be better. Then the other shoe falls! We just found out my husband has MS. We are having a hard time finding a doctor that takes our insurance(if you want to call it insurance). Jonas' boss has told him he will always have a job, and he and his wife are looking into better insurance for us.

Now I know that MS is something that you can live with for a long time- my Grandmother had it, so I do know a few things about it! I know that I am strong enough mentally to hand what I need to do for my husband. I know I can stand up to him when he goes through the rough patches he will go through with the verbal abuse(yes, this is part of MS, being very short tempered and bitchy). I truly believe I can handle all of what I will need to do.

All except watching my children cry that is! My daughter Jo got up today, and ran down stairs to give my husband a hug. She had a bad dream last night, one where her father lost his grip and fell down there stairs and died. She was so upset that we had to sit her down and explain to her that we will be moving in a few years to a home with out a basement, and with out an up stairs, just so we don't have to worry about this kind of thing. I can still see the scared look in her eyes, and to me that is going to be the worst part!

Hug your family and your friends!

Wednesday, April 21, 2004

Wow! Time does fly by!

I can't beleive I haven't been here for almost 2 months~ Sorry! I have been so busy with the kids and the company, and all those clubs I run. Sometimes it feels like I don't have 5 minutes to myself!

Well, let's see what has been going on for the last 2 months... Jillian turned 2 the day before Easter- we had to have a Brthday/Easter party for her(I really don't think she minded!!) i took the kids to Chuck E Cheese, now I get "When can we go back" at least once a day! LOL! Took my son to go see Thomas the Tank Engine, and got to see Kris Draper of the Red Wings(I think I was the most excited about that!) while we were there. I am trying to figure out how to afford to take my oldest two to a concert this summer- the tickets may be cheap, but all the extra charges are going to make it $150! Figures!!

Oh well, we live only once don't we! I really do need to take the girls to the concert- they desirve this as a treat for being such good kids! I am trying to do more for them all. I can't stand it when we have all these vacations and we don't do anything. I am also going to try to save for a trip to Disney or something close to it! I only ever got to go on trips like this with my older sister, and I always said my kids would get those same kind of trips! Time to buckle up and save for the fun!

Tuesday, February 24, 2004

Waiting...

I hate waiting! I have to wait another 36 hours before I find out if DH gets a new job! It is driving me crazy! I so want him to get out of the line of work he is in now- Car Stereo Store Manager for 3 stores. He works about 12 hours a day six days a week.

I also have somethings coming in the mail- but of course I have to wait. I don't know how long it will take to get something form Brazil. I was mailed a week ago, why isn't in here yet!

Speaking of mail- I sent some packages out last week that still haven't made it to Canada! Come on- they are what 30 minutes from my house! Your going to tell me it takes over a week to get there! Heck, I could have walked them there by now!

Ok, so I am being a tad bit impatient today. Guess I should go take a chill pill and relax. Hey wait, some body(Annette) sent me that cute pattern, I could go stitch it! Oh yeah, stitch has been cut to the bear minimum latley too. I really think that is what I need to do! I am going to stitch today- well that and take care of the kids, the dog, the cats, the DH, and .....

Friday, February 20, 2004

Freinds....

Sometimes they can be such a pain! Ok, so I haven't blog in for ever! I just have been so busy with the kids and the hubby I jut have not had time- so for you Angi here I go!

Last week we had the fun of trying to keep DS on the couch for a while. He was shoveling snow for the neighbor, and fell and pulled his groin. Have you ever tried to explain to a five year old, that he can't keep getting up and playing even when he feels better! Not a great job!

Dh has been bouncing off the walls because of a couple of phone calls he has received in the last 2 days. I am not going to say any more, in fear of jinxing it! Will let you all know later!

DD's have all been fun in their own ways! #1 has a boy that likes her, but he can't let anyone else know(he is a Senoir and she is a freshmen) I am hoping they keep this relationship just this way for the rest of the school year! I am so not ready for her to start dating!!

#2 is still having a hard time with girls at school- she is liked by all the teachers, and these girls want to be the teachers pet- sorry the job is already filled! You know the teacher likes your kid when he tells you, "She can always make me laugh, even when the rest of the kids are being unruly." She has a teacher that really cares about the whole class, and he is worried about the girls that are picking on DD- he is afraid they are going to be the type that want every thing now, and damn the consiquinces. the Principal has even stated DD is in a class full of "Mean Girls". I guess DD needs to learn to not care about everyone(yeah, like she could do that!), and just worry about herself. It is hard to have a heart as big as her's!

Then there is DD#3- she is learning to talk, and climb! She is getting to be very independent- pours her own milk- all over the floor! She has also decded to eat only what she can get out of the fridge by herself. This means a lot of messes for Mom! Oh well, guess that is what happens.

Other then all of that- life has been quiet! Hope yours has been to bad!

Wednesday, January 28, 2004

Baby, it's cold INSIDE!

I was awoken to the sound of my husband telling me that the heater is broken and he is waiting for the tech to call him back. We ended up having to leave the gas stove on (the front two burners) to keep the house warm. When we got up it was a "balmy 63 degrees" (as DH would say). It took until 11 to get it warm again(that and almost $400). At least we know it is fixed right this time, and that the AC is going ot get a good going over the spring.

My DD#3 was not happy with the fact that she couldn't go in the kitchen(had her locked out for her own protection). She has been n a roll ever since. I think I finally got her to go to sleep, but not with out any fighting. At least I know it will be quiet for the next hour or so!

Now to get DS and DD#2 to take a nap! Oh wouldn't that be a nice queit afternoon!

Tuesday, January 06, 2004

It's the little things...

that make me happy! Last night my husband decided to finish putting my sewing area together. I now have a chair, table and light in the living room to stitch in. I have had said chair for 2 years, but because our baby girl needed her playpen in the living room, we didn't have room for my stuff. Jillian is now over the "cage" and will not get close to it, so we took it down and put up my stuff.

I have a glider, table and Portable Daylight(Thanks Angi!!) sitting in front of the window. This summer I will be able to look out at my rose garden(I have 19 rose bushes in the front yard). I will also be able to watch the kids ride their bikes, while Miss Jillian is napping, and not have to pace back and forth worrying about Jonas listening to the kid across the street(We can cross the road. We don't have to ask. We are big enough....)

Now I have to convince the kids that the chair was put there for me to sit in! So far they have been in it more then I have! Oh well, the newness will wear off soon, and it will be mine, ALL MINE!